“This is my outlet. This is my intimacy.”
Would you call it love,
committed to one painting, heart and soul,
mind and focus, married as vision
to its fruit,
as pigment bound to oil?
Though I’ve never once pressed my lips
to that canvas, it’s taken everything I’ve given—
Warmed, the paint between
my body and the canvas, blurring the lines
with soft fuzz and moistened finger tips
Stirred up against every blushed detail;
the softness of the hair, the light, the
gentleness of the smile, the foliage,
an hour alone in the glimmer white of the eye,
because perfection of the gentle gaze
is beheld in the waxed layers
upon layers,
upon warmth, upon touch,
upon layers of revision — of love,
of color nudged and softened
to her body, of work
eroded from my wrists,
to the very gaze that rests
in the crooks of my palms and my nape.
In short, no. I wouldn’t quite call it
“love,” rather, manipulation of some sort;
or a moment, or several, of beauty.